Broken heart

O Allah, please heal and mend my broken heart. The one who broke it doesn't know that he broke it. He hurt me. He was mean and I didn't think I deserved it. Of course he does think that I deserved it. He always thinks that he is right. All the time. He thinks he know best. He thinks he knows it all. He thinks that he changed for the better and that the fact that I didn't change goes to show that I haven't grown. Well if he means that being easily offended by a simple question of "We are going to dinner right...??" is growth, then I am in trouble.

I don't know what he wants from me. Not too long ago, he told me "Don't complain..don't assume..." - now that I have stopped doing that he goes back and say.."Complain!! ( re the house defects to the developer ok yes but it is still complaints!! and then the other day he didn't tell me that we are heading to Aeon and when we had a fight as a result of it he said " I made the u turn, you should already know that we were heading to Aeon!" Really? Now you want me to assume? I give up. I am now married to a sensitive old man who doesn't have fun with the wife anymore.

Well, in his defence, he provides well for us. I am grateful for that really. Then I guess next in line is his exercise because he needs to lose weight. Between work and his exercise routine and the exercise routine he has Arwen on, there isn't much time for anything else. Not much time for the wife especially.

Oh and another thing he says " I am reactionary..I react to how you act" ..Really? Then, what am I? A robot? You think I don't react to how you act? You come home and you are quiet because apparently you don't want to tell me what a heavy responsibility you have to do at work in order to earn a living for us because you don't want me to worry. Oh how sweet. Instead you decide to keep quiet and sit in front of the telly and then expects me to talk to you so you can react to me. What a load of crap. So I can't react to how silent and grumpy you look and decide maybe I should stay away. For self -preservation, more than anything else really.

So that' is where I am right now. In self-preservation mode since whatever I could say might explode a time bomb.

I know this is a blog for you Wen but yeah you might want to know when you are all grown up that sometimes marriage sucks and it takes a lot, a lot of compromise and a hell lot of hard work.