You are Six!!

It is so wonderful having a birthday when you are a kid!

This year we were able to hold a party at our house yesterday 22 October 2011 and you were so happy and that made me and your Bak so very happy. You wore your beautiful Rapunzel costume and you got to play with your cousins and friends. Then you got lots of presents. You got your Toy Story cake. This year we only blew out the candles once. Malu dah agaknye Arwen in front of so many people, right?

The day before, Friday the 21st, Bak and I brought your much requested Boboi Boy cake to school along with party packs for your friends.

Later, after school we took you for lunch at Chilli's at One Utama. You were so happy because you told us "I love my birthday" and then added "Chilli's is my favourite restaurant!" mostly because you love, love the kids' cheese pizza. Yummy!

I hope you know how to appreciate and be grateful for the things you are getting because even though some other kids may be getting more exciting parties or more extravagant presents but there are even more kids who gets less than you. So we must always be grateful and thankful to Allah for whatever and all the rezeki we get ok. We don't want to spoil you with material things but I understand that as a kid you want toys. So there must be a balance ok. We cannot get every single thing that you want but what we can get we try all right.


Ok enough with the 'heavy'. We love you dearest Arwen. So so so much!! You will never know how much until you get your own child but in the mean time all you have to know and always remember that we love you, no matter what.

An exhausted but a happy girl :)

Baby sister?

Mama is going through something tough right now. Actually your Bak & I have been trying to conceive an adik for you. (you want a sister not a brother). Unfortunately even after 3 years ++ tiada rezeki lagi. We started trying after you turned 3 going on 4 really. Back then you didn't want a baby sister or brother. Now that you are older, you really want one. One adik. A sister, not a brother since of course you're a girl. However, a couple of months back I had to have a talk with you about the possibility of us not having another baby at all.

I told you that sometimes we cannot have what we want. Like this baby sister. It is up to Allah in the end not us. You said to me so innocently, "Maybe Allah ran out of babies....." No darling that is not the case. Allah doesn't run out of things especially not babies. Maybe I am destined to only have you as my child? I don't know. I hope not. I would really like you to have sibling(s).


You  even have a name for your baby sister. You want to name her Bella! So we try to doa everyday, "Oh Allah, please bless us with a happy, healthy, perfect baby sister for Arwen for us to take care and love. Amin."

The hardest part for me right now is seeing people around me even celebrities in Malaysia and overseas, families, cousins even fictional characters on the TV shoes that I watch are all popping out babies. Yang mama paling tak tahan dan sangat tercabar iman mama adalah bila mama tengok orang yang dah ada anak 2, 3 dan 5 orang, masih dapat rezeki tambah anak.


Mama berdoa every day dan juga berusaha tapi I feel like I have to start preparing myself or otherwise I will get hurt over and over again when my period comes every month.